Crazy life

My meds stopped working 2 months ago. I tried to contact my doctor regarding this because I was feeling this constant state of depression. No response. I called again and no response. She left me a voice mail and decided to put me on effexor. After I started taking this, it took a turn for the worse. I became suicidal.

Because of the medication and because of my suicidal nature, I made a half-assed attempt at committing suicide but it was on a whim. I was taken to the hospital by police, feeling completely humiliated and embarrassed, and got evaluated by doctors that would not listen to me. This ER did not make me better. The new medication made me better, and my new approach on my ability to just have patience.

Needless to say I am more stable, but my gastrointestinal system is still screwed up. Oh well.

Off to bed. Up at a crazy hour and need to get back to sleep so I can function. Blah.