This Week

Well this week seemed to start out with me feeling apathetic about my GI issues.  I went to an appointment regarding this and I still don't feel like I should be having these problems for as long as I have.  I don't know what else to say except that I want my life to be normal; I want my life to have meaning instead of riding out what doesn't mean anything in the long run.  I can't keep being crippled by this and I need some decent help, and I HATE how long it is taking to get this all sorted out.  Paleo diet is officially out of consideration for me.  No matter WHAT I eat, the pain is still there.  On top of that, I have a cold. 

Good news: I am getting over my cold.  I am optimistic about Jon's job.  Period.

Myself and Last Week

So today is Monday, oh dread.  I have an exam tomorrow for my GI issues and I"m nervous to go because I have to be awake for the procedure.  Also I have a follow up for that exam on August 25 2012. 

I just had breakfast and am usually awoken during the weekdays by Jon's phone or alarm.  After the third time his phone went off, I got up.  I don't understand how Jon can go back to sleep after his phone alarm goes off twice, and he gets a call from work. 

My plan for today is to exercise, and not to make my Physical Therapist mad by playing Disc Golf.  I have two appointments tomorrow: I have a GI exam and a PT appointment.  I think I just wrote that to remind myself.  Oh well. 

I have a Masters degree in Forensic Psychology, but I don't feel like it because it's so very hard to find an acceptable job for my skill level.  I was thinking of applying for jobs that I am under qualified for just to get some extra income, but I did cut down on a lot of different payments by refinancing and such, so I guess we shall see if I need more than a part time job in the near future.

I'm selling AVON in the interim, until I find the right job for me.  Go to www.youravon.com/annitabell and shop for whatever you want. 

Last week was stressful to a point that I could have had a nervous breakdown if I wasn't occupied with chores, store, and such.  Jon wasn't doing so well either.  His sister is in a bad situation and needs to get out of the situation she is in. 

I'm still struggling but I'm trying to make the best of the day as much as possible.  Stop and smell the flowers.  You never know how long they will last.

AVON

So I'm selling AVON temporarily to get extra money for my doctorate degree. Please visit my store for cheap stuff! :)

Up early again

So I went to the bathroom and then could not go back to sleep. I am watching "The Biggest Loser" right now. I like "Heavy" better because it isn't about winning anything. It's about getting the individuals healthy and far away from death.

I think I am going to go back to sleep. It's 5:26 a.m. and I'm sleepy.

My weight loss journey

So I've been losing a little weight here and there. I've changed my eating habits dramatically by including vegetables and fruit into almost every meal I consume. I feel better, however, I gained 4 lbs for some reason. I think it may be due to water retention. I'm about to start my period. It's just so upsetting to have that much of a gain.

I'm going to continue to eat healthy and exercise. We'll see how that goes.

What am I doing wrong?

I have been trying to lose weight for 2 months and counting. I have not lost a pound. Now I know muscle weighs more than fat, but I think I may be working my muscles too much. I exercise different muscle groups every day so I give my other muscles a break. Maybe I should just do that 5 times a week instead of 7?

I do need to keep my heart rate at 162 which I have not been doing. As far as me losing weight, I did it the wrong way the first time around. I fainted more times than I can count and felt lightheaded on a daily basis because I kept my calorie consumption to less than 800 calories, and I had an active job.

I am doing things differently. I told myself that this year. As soon as January came, I started adding resistance every day. I am able to lift more weight (20 lbs more) in all muscle groups than January 1st. I feel better, but still no lbs lost. My magic number for calorie consumption is 1421. I had assistance calculating that. So I have to be serious regarding my dietary intake. I know I am exercising enough. I may have to do resistance training less though because I am not losing any weight. I have started to take measurements so I can see SOME progress. Hopefully I'll see some results next Monday.

Wish me luck in my venture. This will be my online journal for my progress for however long it takes me to get down to where I want to be.

The New Year is upon us

and I feel as if I'm not any closer to finding the job that I want. I'm trying to lose weight and it seems as if that's impossible. I exercise for 30 minutes - 1:30 minutes and still see no results. I know I have a thyroid problem, but those levels are correct. I can't help but wonder why I retain so much water when I DON'T use my diuretic. Because of one day of not taking this diuretic, I gained 8 lbs in 2 days, not changing how I ate, or my exercise activity. I still exercised every day.

I'm frustrated because I want to lose weight for my big day but it seems hopeless. I would like to lose 10 lbs a month, but have not lost that amount yet. Hopefully I can find out what works for me. Last time I lost weight, I ate one meal a day and took fastin. I lost 50 lbs in 5 months or so. I wish I could do that again. We'll see.