Football Season

Ever since I was 10 years old, I have liked football. I usually watched it on Sundays with my parents. It was our family time. Monday night football was always at 6 pm at night. Well, since I've moved over on the east coast, football now starts at 9:30 pm! I really can't get adjusted to it that well. Maybe I should start taping the games just so I'm able to watch football on occasion. I really have no excuse for not watching it other than the fact that I don't know what channel it's on, and Monday night football starts too late. Since I start work in the morning and get off in the early evening, and I have the weekends off, I have the perfect schedule to watch football. I just need to adequately find the channels. I usually end up falling asleep in the middle of a football game and wonder what happened with the teams I was watching.

With broadcasting being the way that it is, the producers tend to make a segway into other games in the process of another. Even though the first game hasn't finished, they show another game that is in the process of being played. I don't get that. A football fan such as myself would like to see a game all the way through, instead of beginning to watch a football game in the third quarter after half time is already over. It just doesn't make any sense to me. But, what can ya do? Not much, which is why having cable is a luxury these days. You can order football on demand, that is, if you have the money to support such priviledges. So enough with my ranting. I'll catch some football next weekend, hopefully!

I Feel Groggy.

Rise and shine! It's Monday! That is the exact feeling that I was not experiencing when I woke up this morning. I felt like I had gotten 2 hours of sleep along with my muscles aching which made for an interesting morning of me almost falling over and staggering trying to get into the shower this morning. I wake up at 5:30 a.m. after getting to sleep around 11 p.m. last night. I can barely keep my eyes open this morning to even do any exams. It takes me an extra long time when I'm not completely alert to begin with. I am looking forward to the time when I get to go home and sleep. I plan to take a nap, then wake up and eat something. I think I will skip my regular routine of working out 5 times a week and make it 4 times a week instead; Well, at least for this week. My body is still in "sleep" mode. I am awake, but my body is trying to force me into an early nap. I shall resist for as long as I can. Maybe when I have lunch, I will be more energetic, or more tired, because my stomach is doing all the work. Only time shall tell what this mystery will reveal. I will last as long as I can, then crash when my lovely bed beckons for my head on my soft fluffy pillow.

R&R

It's Friday! Finally, the week that seemed like it was never going to end has almost ended for me. I will start fresh on Monday with a lot of rest and relaxation to rejuvinate myself. I can not express how relieving it is for this week to end, after all the challenges I was faced with. I will find a way to push through this with some strong meditation, exercise, and maybe even some reading. I should throw in playing my trombone somewhere in there:-). I am sleep deprived and am looking forward to a nice long nap when I get home.

To my family and friends: I hope all of your weeks have gone well, and hopefully, you learned something new about yourself as I did. Thanks for thinking of me! I appreciate all the encouraging thoughts:-). Next week I'll start off awake and alert. I'll do my job to the best of my ability and I will conquer any challenge that presents itself. Well, I can give it my best effort! We'll see where this next week leads me. Wish me luck!!

Goodbye, Oregon Phone Number

Yesterday, I decided that I needed a new phone company because the one that I was going through said that they were going to terminate me due to them having to pay my roaming charges. I didn't have an Oregon address to give them, so I could no longer continue service with them. I remember when I first got to Klamath Falls. I look back at the phone that I used and realized how old it actually is now. Wow. Technology for phones sure got more complicated over 3 years. The phone I got just 3 months ago is now ancient. I now have a "flip phone" which I've never had before. I've been using "nokia" phones simply because there's always been a charger around for me to use. Now if I lose this charger, my phone will die. How sad. But I digress, the phone I have now is a Motorola and can get on the internet! I can take pictures and send them. I can download and play music videos. That is, if I want to pay extra. Since I'm more of a simplistic person when it comes to phone usage, I believe that all I need is the ability to contact my friends and family members. The extra features are an added bonus! I am still trying to remember my new phone number. I'll probably have it memorized by the end of the day!

When You Fall Off A Horse, Get Right Back On!

Well the past few days of work I have found myself stressed beyond belief. I was faced with criticism that I'm not used to and I took that criticism in the worst way possible. I just love this analogy that my older sister Sarah made: "You have this amazing sword, but you don't point it out to fight, you point it in and stab yourself. You use your powers for evil instead of good." And although she paints a pretty picture with these analogies to amuse me, in all fairness, it is the truth. I got kicked down the last few days. Today, I am trying to get through that. I will get back up, and move on. I will not look to the past to re-live my mistakes, but just to live each day the best that I can, and do the BEST that I am capable of doing, while at the same time, not mentally defeating myself in the process. I can do this. I'm confident I can do this. I have the skill and intelligence to succeed in this profession. I just have to believe it internally. Today, hopefully, will be the start of something better to come.

Memorial Hall

I have the priviledge of seeing a concert tonight being performed at Memorial Hall. This place was just remodeled and had its grand opening last Sunday on the eleventh of this month. I didn't get to participate in the grand opening, but I'm looking forward to seeing all the improvements that have been made, along with the wonderful music! The technical director actually gave me these free tickets because she was going to Italy. Heck, with how long she's worked, she deserves to enjoy herself. I guess it's a win-win situation for me!

In other news, Ki Sun and I have joined the local Durham Concert Band! The director of the orchestra really adds to the energy and atmosphere of the band. The musicians in the Durham Band exceed my expectations after being in the Klamath Falls band and symphony for 3 years. Bigger area, bigger opportunities, better musicians. We rehearse every Thursday night at 7:30-9:30 p.m. It makes for a really hard Friday morning seeing as how I have to catch the bus to get to work at 6:40 a.m., but I believe that it's worth it just to be involved in the musical community, or to at least step in and get a start at it. Being involved with music helps remind me of who I am and what my desires are in life. My life is like music. I listen to everyone around me and I try not to single myself out. My effort is only as good as those around me. Without all the positive encouragement, my performance would not be as outstanding as it has come to be.

3 Months Left in 2005?!

Where has the time gone? It seems like such a short time ago that I was watching the ball drop on television in times square for the 2005 new year to begin. Have years been going by faster, or have I just been to busy to notice? Is it the older we get, the busier we get, and the less things we notice in every day life? Do we just continue to go along with every day motions that we forget to make days last longer? I don't really think that's possible. It's like our internal clocks are trying to keep up, or slow down with how the day actually goes, which is why we end up saying, "Man, this day has gone by so slow", or "Where has the time gone?". This is all due to us. It's all about control. We wish we could control how time goes, how fast or slow the clock moves to make us feel more comfortable and secure. Some people even think of what they could have done differently this year to make sure that it counts, which is why for some odd reason, we as people feel guilty, or wish we could have done something differently before another year went by, whether that be to make your place neater, or talk to the ones we love sooner. Time goes by every day, but it seems that we, as the public, place a lot of emphasis of those changing numbers of the year. 2006 is almost here, strangely enough. Am I sad, or baffled? I think more baffled than anything. I was so busy moving and getting adjusted. I still need some time for that. I think that the media is really pushing the holidays already, which really makes us think, "Well where did the time go?". I don't really know, but I do know that all of us can make the best out of every day, even if it is the worst day we've had. There's always something to be happy about, or content about. A bad day can always be cured by the love and support of family, and knowing that there is someone out there that cares. Know that you have a roof over your head and a place to sleep. Things are not really as bad as we tend to make them out to be. I'm content just knowing that I'm okay.

It's Hurricaine Season For Sure!

Well after the big hit with Hurricaine Katrina over in New Orleans, the one that we're having over here doesn't seem to have the public's attention nearly as much. Probably because no one has died. It's only a stage 1 from what I hear. It's supposed to be heading towards Virginia now. We, in Central North Carolina are seeing the "residue" of this hurricaine with some windy rain and cloudy days. Nothing too major though. Thanks to my family for giving me a call and checking up on me:-). I picked the right place to live in North Carolina, that's for sure. Ophelia seems to be stagnant, and moving very slowly. It doesn't seem to be dissipating quite yet though. I'm hoping all the families on the coast are okay. I'm alright! How are all of you doing?

Winter Has Started

The warm days of summer are now coming to an end only to wake up to frost on my windshield and a smooth cool wind blowing across my face. Buses now run past midnight and college students are prominent in this area again. Observing the students talking and laughing on the bus makes me nastalgic of my days in high school. It was so nice to have a true happy moment where I wasn't thinking about all the world issues and just lived in the moment. But then again, arrogance isn't my preferred state of mind either. I like to be aware of what is going on around me, and around the world. I do care about humanity and its survival. When I heard that many people died, it pained me. Heck, it even pains me when I hear how many animals have died in that horrible tragedy. Nobody deserves that. No animal or human alike deserves that. It's really honorable when you see people giving selflessly in every day life, not just when a big tragedy happens. I have much respect and admiration for people like that. People who give anonymously and need no thanks for their good deeds, but just the gratification that they helped someone in need have earned my respect. I give thanks to people like that. They will live truly satisfying and fulfulling lives.

What Is Up With These GAS PRICES?!

I admit, I don't drive much. Ki Sun uses my car most often as of the past few months. I would like to be able to take a nice relaxing drive over the weekend and not worry about how much financial strain that will put on the both of us. However, with gas prices skyrocketing like they have been, I doubt I am ever going to have the luxury of having a relaxing drive without worrying about money. I've kept my mouth shut long enough and I need to vent. This is completely obsurd!!! I can't afford to drive anywhere! Thank goodness for the buses! With gas prices jumping up in this area 30 cents overnight, it just burns me up that we are being taken advantage of this way. I saw on the news last night of the republican party saying how "good" the economy is. What the hell world are they living in? How can the economy be so good when we as people can't even afford food if we need to drive somewhere? It's like saying, "Well I can drive to go get food, but then I have to pay for the gas to get there, so I might as well forget it because then I won't be able to afford the food in the first place". I don't think that driving should be a punishment! I'm sure a lot of poeple would agree with me! Airline flight costs have also risen over the past month. Why is this? Why does the president who says that he "loves this country", then he goes right around and sucks us dry? What is this world coming to? Or what is this world going from? This country used to be so much better than it has become. It was built on grounds and morals. This country is a shadow of its former self. Let this craziness end. Let us be at peace for once.